I want to hold your hand.

My little Cosette must be having a growth spurt at the moment because I feel like she has been feeding a lot. It's got me thinking, so here are some thoughts... 

It's easy to feel a bit frustrated and tied down when feeding every hour or two (or even more) and even though I love, love, love breast feeding (yes, I'm one of those Mumma's) it is a bit of a challenge while also trying to attend to the other daily demands of being a mum...

•chasing Miss Frankie around

•setting up craft activities that last a whole two and a half minutes

•supplying seemingly endless amounts of food to my 'starving' two year old! (at her request for a third bowl of porridge yesterday morning I just put oats and milk in a bowl as I couldn't be bothered cooking them - she must have been hungry though cause she totally ate the whole bowl!!)

•trying to keep the house semi organised 

•ensuring bottoms are sufficiently wiped and so on. 

Things that I have realised while lying with and holding Coco in my arms have made me smile, reset my brain and enjoy it while it lasts. 

I also remember feeling this way when Frankie was little, but now it feels like an age since she finished feeding at 15 months. Time truly does fly (I cannot remind myself of that enough!). So I'm not going to wish it away but will instead enjoy this snuggling time because soon she will be crawling and running around and might not want to lie so still next to me. 

The other thing I've been thinking of is how proud I am of Coco's little chubby rolls that seem to be increasing by the day. I'm her sole source of food right now - so all of those delicious layers of rolls on her arms, legs and belly are all thanks to me and my milk. It really should be considered a super power if you think about it! I'm so thankful that I can breastfeed and have done it relatively effortlessly. I know it's not always easy for everyone - so for that I am truly grateful.

 When it comes down to it though, the only reason that really matters is that she needs me. I am her Mumma. She wants me. I love that. My little one born in the middle of Queensland summer is totally a snuggler! She loves to be held, loves to be close and loves to hold my hand and suck her thumb simultaneously. It's precious and it doesn't take much for me to be made all gooey and soft for her and her sweet ways! ❤️